Dear Mom, If only I could go back in time. I would sense you more. I would see you.See your struggles. See your accomplishments. See your kindnesses. See our similarities. I would hear you.Hear your truths. Hear your logic. Hear your love; spoken and unspoken. Hear your wisdom.I would listen to your childhood memories and… Continue reading
Category: LOSS AND SUCH
Forever Forty-Six
Today on 27 October 2022, Dani, my daughter would have been 50 years old. Instead, she is forever forty-six. I am feeling at peace with this day. I decided shortly after her death to choose peace. I had written a declaration that began with: I’ve decided to be at peace. Even though existence might be… Continue reading
Anyway
One of my favorite topics is success. I enjoy succeeding and I enjoy it when others succeed. I enjoy watching people try to succeed. I cry at live performances, even when I don’t know them. I appreciate their effort. It touches my soul. The other day, I realized someone who had more resources than me… Continue reading
The Miracle of Nature: Zos Chanukah, This is Chanukah; This is Chanukah, This is My Daughter
part 1: Zos Chanukah, This is Chanukah The holiday of Chanukah is about rededicating the altar in the Second Temple of Jerusalem after it had been defiled by the Greeks, in 139 B.C.E.. “Zos Chanukah, This is Chanukah”. The phrase is meant to connect to a verse in the Torah referring to the dedication of… Continue reading
One Form or Another
Today would have been my daughter Dani’s birthday, except no, she’s dead and gone. Except she’s also here the way the spiritual part of us is eternal. What I loved most about her was her sense of humor and the way we laughed together. The side splitting, my stomach hurts, I can’t breathe, kind of… Continue reading
I Decided
I’ve been blessed to have people in my life who despite odds against them and horrific obstacles, their triumphs over their adversities are inspirational to others. Years ago I noticed they all said the same two words as they shared how they succeeded against a myriad of struggles. The kind of struggles that keeps too… Continue reading
Words on the Elevator Doors
It’s been over two years since I parked in that garage, walked those halls, and rode in that elevator. Today was for my own early morning and routine medical tests. We never came this early two years ago. Today I had my choice of parking spots. Sometimes, back then the garage would be so filled… Continue reading
Family, Friends, and Foes
Coming off a three-week-long Jewish holiday season that crescendoed with the idea of unity, love, and Oneness and segues into beginning again, has given me pause. I do so love a happy and purposeful beginning. If we are looking at cycles of life, then beginnings also remind us of endings that brought us around. Thoughts… Continue reading
I can hear you
Photo credit: Rachel Stein Yesterday marked a year since our little tabby cat died. We home-hospice(d) her for three weeks. It was rough to watch her decline and at the same time we were grateful to be able to let her die and leave us at her own pace. July 2020 overall was a rough… Continue reading