How do I write about a lifelong love? How do I put into words all I feel about them? Our history. Our relationship. Those I have known, touched, loved. Those I know of and yet to see. Those I see regularly and commune with and admire and strive to get the perfect picture that captures how they make me feel.
How do I convey what their strength has meant to me? The way they sheltered me, fed me, played with me, and listened to me when I was a little girl. They were there when I soared on the swing and my feet touched the clouds. They were there when my friends and I played pretend with our dolls; sitting out on large handmade quilts.
They were there for me.
They were there when I was in the eighth grade and my parents were getting a divorce and I needed a place to escape.
They were there for me when I traveled far and wide. They met Corki, my precious dog-ter. They met all my children, and my husbands, and a lover. They know my best friends.
They have shared it all with me. The ups. The downs. When I was so happy I thought I would burst. When good fortune came my way. When I grieved so deeply, I thought I would die. When I was scared out of my wits. When I was in physical pain and every step hurt and I could only visit for a few minutes.
They were there for me.
When I sequestered myself at home, they would tap on the window and peek in on me. Simply seeing them there restored my spirit and let me know, somehow I would get through my despair. They keep me alive. They literally keep me alive!
We are one.
We breathe in each other. We course through each other’s bodies.
It feels like I need them more than they need me. They do need me. How do I reciprocate? How can I advocate for them? Watch out for them? How do I live up to them and their majesty? This is something I now ask myself. Often.
It’s past time for me to bring this amazing, loving, life-giving relationship to balance. Maybe I have been/am selfish, but I am grateful beyond words for them. I admire them, respect them, and love them with all my fiber. I want to live up to them. I want to recompense. In all honesty, I will fall short. They are greater than I can hope to be. They ask for little. They give naturally and abundantly. It’s past time for me to try.
They are here for me now.
They deserve all I can do for them and more.
(The End.)
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